Testimonial with Sónia

I was diagnosed with Borderline almost a year ago.
Having Borderline means never knowing how you’ll feel in the next moment, whether happy or sad, as happiness is a fleeting feeling.
It’s carrying the weight of failed relationships on your shoulders, an endless emptiness in your chest that takes your breath away, and living with the constant fear of being abandoned.
It’s not knowing who you are and always having an unhealthy need to belong.
It’s feeling like every word spoken is directed at you.
It’s experiencing such intense pain from rejection, real or imagined, that only self-harm can numb it, even if just for a few minutes.
It’s not having the ability to defend yourself when you’re offended, because you believe you deserve it.
It’s confiding in someone close to you and them not believing you, because outwardly, you appear functional and sometimes even aggressive.
This aggression comes from fear; inside, we’re filled with the fear of being rejected.
Borderline can be treated, but it takes a lot of love, understanding, and compassion to handle the crises.
Everyone involved suffers, but the person with Borderline almost dies.